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This isn't new music, it was released last year.  I became obsessed with I Say Fever as soon as I heard it but sort of dismissed the other songs on the album.  Oh how wrong I was.  This album is the only thing I can listen to right now.  It's ruined all other music for me so Brent Knopf, if you're reading this (you're not...) please keep making music like this.  It's wonderful.

If you want to listen to it before you make that ipod commitment, you can on their website, here.  Every song must be listened to from beginning to end, because trust me, if you don't like the first few seconds and you skip the song you will be missing out on something great.  It almost happened to me, so don't you be a fool too. 

a girl named gus.

A girl I didn't know very well died this weekend.  She was 23, and a close friend of friends, and I had to deliver the news to someone who is very very close to me who was a good friend of hers.  The news hadn't broken that they found her body on the news or in the papers yet, so in a way, I'm glad that I was able to find the confirmation so that the rest of her friends can find out in a more personal way than on the 5 o'clock news.  It's not easy telling someone who has been holding out hope for a miracle that what they knew deep down had happened had in fact happened.  I didn't know her very well, but I can't focus now, I can't stop thinking about her. I can't look out my window at the dark clouds rolling past, threatening an even darker day, and not cry that such a young, loved, motivated woman is gone.  Just like that.

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It was a stupid and needless death.  She shouldn't have jumped in the lake, she should have learned her limits with alcohol by 23, right?  But she was that crazy, fun girl that everyone knew.  She was athletic, but it wasn't enough to get her to shore this weekend and I, just like a lot of other people are left to wonder why this had to happen.  Why didn't someone cut her off when she was too drunk?  Why didn't they physically restrain her when she wanted to swim to shore?  Why didn't someone strap on a life-vest and go get her after she did?  These questions are moot, it's too late.  Just remember that alcohol and lakes are a dangerous combo, peeps.

Rest in peace, Gus.

I just don't get paid enough for this shit.

I have a very flexible job.  I need a flexible job because I don't want to have to put my kid in daycare all day long.  So I took a pay cut and my job is supposed to consist of light accounting duties. 

The CFO of the company doesn't like to do his job, so guess what I end up doing?  His fucking job.  So he can go home early.  Or when he promises something to someone and then can't get it done in time because he's a fucking moron - I then step in and do whatever it is he needs done.  My job has gone from entering payments and invoices to building and maintaining our fucking website, managing all of our investment partners (over 300 of them!!), and now keeping track of expenses for our wells, among many, many other things that my hourly wage JUST DOESN'T FUCKING COVER. 

Adding insult to injury, he just dumped a project on me that involves using ANOTHER spreadsheet that I built for him, which while explaining what he wants me to do now, HE took credit for.  I fucking HATE this guy.

I am SO beginning to understand the ladies of "Snapped".

Birthdays.

Today I am older than I was yesterday...wait a minute, that's true every damn day, isn't it?   Humbuggery!

Here's a birthday question:

Let's say your family is planning a surprise party or something else just as delightful for your birthday (which they better fucking be...) but they want to throw you off the scent.  The way they do this is when you come down to leave for work first thing in the morning is pick a fight with you.  And nobody tells you happy birthday, not even your own kid.  Now, you're a little upset, it's not like it really matters or that you expect anything huge on your birthday....

Oh wait, now you're pulling out of the driveway and, shit.....now you're crying and sad.  And goddammit, you were in such a rush to get out of there you forgot your sunglasses so now you have to go buy some new ones cause you're so NOT going back in there. 

Long story short your day started out shitty and now you're sad.  Sad because of what happened earlier but also sad because you're over 30 now and you know you shouldn't be boo-hooing just because everyone didn't line up and tell you they're glad you were born. 

Here's the question:  If you get home later and there is a little something special and they all yell, "GOTCHA!!!!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"  can you still punch them in their faces for ruining your day or do you have to act all thankful for their "surprise"?

My New Phobia

Sinkholes!!

Let's put our smarty pants on so when the topic of the Guatemalan sinkhole comes up at your next dinner party you can serve up some knowledge:

Scary shit.

Just One Question...

I've known people who have drug and alcohol addictions, and while it is possible to get help and get your body off of drugs, it's a long, arduous process.  It doesn't happen overnight and it's something one then struggles with on the daily.

So....how the fuck is this possible?

From TMZ MAY 23:

Lindsay's Pals -- She Can't Quit Drugs and Alcohol

Originally posted May 23rd 2010 7:33 AM PDT by TMZ Staff

Lindsay Lohan cannot comply with the order Judge Marsha Revel will almost certainly lay down tomorrow -- cut drugs and alcohol out of her diet ... this according to multiple people who are in a position to know.


Judge Marsha Revel talked about it last Thursday -- that the conditions of her bail will be refraining from consuming alcohol, wearing a SCRAM bracelet to monitor alcohol consumption, and submitting to random drug testing at least once a week.

As one person connected to Lindsay tells TMZ, "She can't make it through a day without it.  She's a mess."

Another source says Lindsay wakes up with cravings and satisfies them fast.

Unless Lindsay's lawyer, Shawn Chapman Holley, changes Judge Revel's mind tomorrow in court, the three conditions should become part of Lindsay's bail by noon.

Probation violations aside, if Lindsay violates any of these conditions, the judge could revoke her bail and put her in jail.

Wow, that's someone with a pretty severe addiction, right?   The conditions of her bail are a step in the right direction, but she's still allowed to abuse the prescription pills she's taken a liking to so really, how much improvement can we expect to see?

Well apparently a lot, and in record time.  Lindsay must be a magical being, the likes of which this world has never seen.  If this is possible maybe unicorns DO exist...

From TMZ MAY 31 (8 whole days later!):

Lindsay Lohan Avoids the Danger Zone

Originally posted May 31st 2010 1:05 AM PDT by TMZ Staff

Lindsay Lohan has finally realized she needs to avoid "those people" ... the ones creating massive temptation ... so say confidants of LiLo, who spoke with TMZ.


We're told Lindsay is spending the long weekend with a close friend by the beach in Venice, CA.  As one friend put it, "She needs to get away from that scene ... and she knows it."

But it's not just the Hollywood clubs that create the danger of relapse. "The people who hang around her are such moochers, and bad energy," says one friend, adding, "she needs to cut them out and I think that's what she's starting to realize."

As for what Lindsay is doing, we're told a lot of sleeping, watching TV and movies.  And shopping.  Interesting ... more than one person says she desperately needs sleep.

The people we've spoken with say it's definitely too early to tell, but Lindsay had at least temporarily turned a corner and is healthier than she's been "in a long time."

Well now how can that be?  She has a prescription for Ambien but she desperately needs sleep?  Hmm, strange.  And after only 8 days she's healthier than she's been in a long time.  I'm sure that's true, but it would seem that giving her this false sense of accomplishment is only going to cause more damage because anyone can see she has a looooong road ahead of her.   I don't know, I hope I'm wrong but I just don't think she has even an inkling of understanding that one should not need a bunch of prescriptions, drugs, and alcohol to enjoy life, and that is destructive and sad.  

Hey There! It's me!

Yeah, so I'm way too lazy to maintain a blog like this.  I recognize this and accept it.  Can you accept it too?